Dec 26, 2010

All I Need is Only You to My Everything.

If everyone are dying to find a peaceful place to go, a home to live, a warm weather to feel, a good sleep, a comfortable seat to sit, a great song to listen, a good book to read, a great potrait to hang on my room's wall, a sweet moment to remember, a perfect life and a true love.

But not me cause I already have you.
But why you?
Let's see (:

-I've never seen any peaceful place to go other than your heart cause every time I feel your heart, I can feel the peace inside of yours that never failed touching mine.
And that's the only thing that could kiss away my problems and put a smile on my face.

-And when I'm lost on finding a home for my self, all I have to do is remember you cause you keep reminding me that you will always have a place in your heart that I can call home and make me feel safe.

-I don't need a warm weather if I got you cause you can keep me warmer more than I need as long as you never stop holding my hand.
So please, never leave.

-When I close my eyes at night, I'll see you lying beside me and when I open my eyes in the morning, I can still see you staring at me and give me a morning kiss.
I guess that's the reason why I never found my self having a bad sleep cause you never leave me alone even in my dreams.

-I only can find my self a comfortable seat when you sit beside me while hugging me and show me your best smile cause seeing you smile and having you beside me will always make me comfortable.

-I also got my own fav song and you were the one who gave it to me.
It's your voice, the most lovely song I've ever heard and I don't need other song to make me smile as long as I still can hear your voice.

-I have loads books but I only got one fav book that never bored me even if I read the same thing many times and it's my diary cause it's all abt you from the first page till the last page.

-And I would only choose one potrait for my room and that potrait is a potrait of your face cause I want to remember every inch of your sweet face.
The face of guy that I really deadly in love.

-And my only sweet moment is when you came into my life and I found your heart sticking to mine cause trust me without you there will be no sweet moment exist.

-A perfect life to me is to live my life with you, the one I love and even if I got everything, it still nothing to me cause for me you are my truly everything and without you, I might be end up my self just like everyone.


My love, maybe I can list down thousands reasons why I chose you but I could never find any perfect right words to tell you how much I love you.
Trust me, I might give up on everything but I would never give up on you cause you are my everything and where ever you may go, I'll always be with you.
I love you more than I can show (:

***You might think Im crazy and weird but have you think abt the person who changed me from a stonehearted girl into sweetsugar girl? Ask your heart, you got the answer. Heart never lies, boy (:

Ara Dcruz <3

A Love Letter To Someone I Loved

Boy, I only can swear with my own soul on this one thing,
the only thing that I can really hold onto and it would never be broken.

Where ever I go as long as I have you with me,
holding my hand and keep my heart warm.
Then there is nothing could ever stop us reaching and seeing our heaven.
Because in heaven there is no pain, sorrow and no goodbyes. Only love, a true beautiful love.

So please let me paint your world with beautiful memories as much as I could.
And let me build you a stairway to heaven because our love is not a ordinary love,
but it is a love that cannot be diminished even by death.

So if I have to go first,
dont worry and dont cry,
because I will always waiting for no matter how long it takes.
But if you have to leave first, please wait for me.

Will you?

We will meet in heaven and create our love story perfectly again with no ending.

I love you infinity (:

With Loves,
Ara D'cruz xxx


*What? Do you think only you can write love letter eh?
I also can mahh, HAHA.
Sorry for being too sweet and dramatic this morning.
Too much sugar, I guess?

Oh anyway, to all PMR's student. Good luck to you guys and ignore those dummies who say ths "PMR je, chill lah!".
Chill your ass lah, dont you know that if you passed straight A in PMR you can further your studies in overseas such as in Australia, Russia, Japan or Egypt? Or get into college and be at the same level with students that 5-8 years older than you? And while those SPM's students sitting their papers, you already got your farging Diploma? If you take your education seriously, you will have a brighter future in every step you take.
As long as you never give up.
It might be hard for you now but everything you do now, your future will pay you back. So its up to you to decide the best for your self.
Sometimes bad things can bring us good things.
Stay tough buddies (:

-Me, another 15years old girl who's in stage4 now.

Ara Dcruz xxx

One True Love

Sentimentalism or in other words, romantic longing, makes it self known most often under the guise of love. For example, as we will explore in the following sentences, the romantic nationalist claim to love their country for which reason they are hostile or even aggressive towards other nations. Or we may consider a young man inlove with a girl which he turns into the sole focus of his life.
What leads him to write her poetry saying "I love you" and become obsessed with her to the point of suicide and infact to divinise her is the nation of love.

As for the majority of people, they think that every emotion to which the name of love is ascribed is virtuous, pure and even holy. That examples of romantic longing such as what we have mentioned above are perfectly acceptable.

Love is indeed a wonderful emotion accorded to humanity by God but its important to distinguish whether that love is real or not and to consider who its directed to and what sentiments its founded on.


Such investigation should make apparent the difference between a sentimentalism that leads to perverse love and real love as revealed to us by God in the Qu'ran. These issues we will examine in here. But first, by way of preliminary information, let us give the meaning of love as it is found in the Qu'ran.

According to the Qu'ran, love is to be shown to those who deserve it. Those who dont deserve it are not be loved. We are even to distance ourselves from them emotionally or atleast to not feel inclined towards them. But those who deserve love, deserve it because of their virtue. The only being who deserves absolute love is God, who created all of us. God brought us into existence, proffered us with countless blessings we enjoy, showed us the way and promised us everlasting paradise. He helps us out of every anxiety and graciously hears our call. Its He who feeds us until we are satisfied, cures us when we are Ill and then restores our spirit.
His love towards us all way bigger than what we have for Him. The only one, Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.

And that is what I mean by True Love.

~Will be cont (:

Love, Lies, Life (:

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadnt?
Or saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Dont be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart.
If you dont, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decides whom it likes and whom it doesnt.
You cant tell your heart what to do. It doest it on its own, when you least suspect it or even when you dont want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that other person does not care as much or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we dont know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But everytime we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Dont be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done or could have had.

-Ask yourself this,

*What would you do if everytime you fell inlove you had to say goodbye?

*What would you do if your bestfriend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (Even if you dont care anymore)

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live but people die.
So speak the truth and throw away the lies.
Open your heart and free your mind.
Look up to everyone, respect everyone, cherish everyone, and care about everyone (:

-Ara D'cruz

Women & Men

This is what Ive learnt and read from Barbara & Prof. Allan's book.
I dint copy it but Im just sharing my own opinion,advices,reason why Im saying this.
I have loads more to share and if you guys want to know more, just tell me (:
It's a good book by the way. You guys should really get it.

Women might be loser in finding the right person for them self unlike men but one thing that men will never can do is smell lies from their partners like a women. But we all have to realise that we all are standing in a circle of life and fact as in this words "You'll get what you want and I'll get what I want" or in another words men will give love but women must give their pride, women need LOVE and men need SEX. Women waste their time to know what their lovers like and dont like while men waste their time cheating and flirting with another woman. Why? Its nature, women are serious and men are easy. As what we can see nowdays, in relationship women understands men more than men do cause women only have one reason to be in relationship which is TO BE LOVED and men only go for one reason which is FUN till they get real matured. Well that explains loads right? Women grows and get mature faster than Men. So women, beware sweetalkers are around us. Think and act like a smart matured woman with a pride. (:

-Ara D'cruz

Dec 10, 2010

Love and Lie

Yesterday, you makes me smile and happy.
Today, Im still crying and sad after knowing that your words yesterday was just a lie.
And why I still could be in love with you after all you've did to me?
It's killing me and breaking me slowly now. It hurts and you will never know.

Dec 5, 2010

Real Souls and Angels - Kisses, Hugs, Tears, Smiles, Happiness, Sadness ^^

Are you guys talking about souls and angels?
Here's mine <333
Extraordinary amazingly awesome BEST FRIENDS FOREVER <333

-Andrew De Cruz *Andy
-Putri Nur Natasha Bt Saiful Rizla *Natt
-Wan Haziq Hilmi B Wan Zainuddin *Ajiq
-Afifudin Affandi *Afif
-Zamil Syaheer *Zam
-Nazzy Ashraf *Nazz

There's no annoying orange without Andrew, no bunny funny face without Natt, no mister "I-dont-know-what-the-hell-Im-talking-about" without you Ajiq, no nerd bisul or scientist without Afif and no best drifter without Zamil, no so-called-korean-hair without Nazz. There will be no cool awesome and amazing stuff without you guys.

Im nothing without you guys <333

LOL *Lots Of Loves,

Little Monster, Ara Dcruz

Family (:

Look at this lady, She was the one who brought me into this world.
I love you mummy, you're the best mummy in the world and trust me mummy. There's no one can be just like you. Your sweetness and thanks for teaching me how to cook till my fiends loved it and they said it reminds of their mum's cook. Thanks for teaching me how to sew, painting and much more. And thanks for believe in me. Ive changed mummy and its all because of you.
I love you with all my heart and soul, Noor Isha Bt Dato Tahir <333

Aww, and this lil panda, my cutie lil sister. the tallest in family- Amanda Dcruz

And the most crazy Aunty, I love you so much more- Yinnie Joey

And lots of loves for my Lovely Aunty- Narl Joey (:

Special thanks to my pretty young lady grandma- Elma Jaamil (:

Loads thanks for always supporting me all and never give up on changing me to be somebody. I love you guys <3

Nov 16, 2010

Put Yourself On Pedestal Mr/Ms Malaysian (:

Assalamualaikum <333

Morning and Happy Eid Adha to you guys.

I hope you guys happy pagi pagi raya ni :p

So pagi raya ni, I memang bosan sangat and terfikir nak sambung topik yang memang I dah lama nak buat.

Perbezaan antara Malaysian dengan orang luar atau pun kau orang selalu gelar "mat/minah saleh" (I harap betullah apa I type ni =.=

Orang selalu tanya I, you ni orang apa eh? I tergolong dalam manusia ROJAK, Parents I and family I bukan datang dari Malaysia tapi Philippines, Brunei and Sepanyol so yeap Im a Pinoy Castille, dari family Duke And macam mana I boleh fasih dalam Bahasa Melayu? I dah berada di dalam Malaysia since I kecil lagi, dalam family I, I seorang je yang nampak different sangat dengan wajah yang totally asian dan ramai kawan dengan orang melayu sampaikan family I cakap I lupa bahasa kitaorang sendiri, Yup I memang failed cakap dalam bahsa sendiri sampaikan I kene ejek dgn my own mum and my boyfriend juga. Percayalah I tak fasih berbahasa tagalog atau tausug dan bahasa yang berkaitan dengan family I.

Sometimes I kene tanya my mum apa yang diaorang cakap sebab I memang Pinoy Sesat -.-

Okay enough with my story-

You guys mesti cakap "Oh you mesti expert in english right?"

I'll give you a big laugh for that question seriously. I ramai tengok orang sini gelakkan orang lain if orang tu failed in English and berlagak macam diaorang kononnya bijak berkata-kata dalam English and tanpa diaorang sedar diaorang dah menyakitkan atau pun melukakan perasaan manusia yang sama dengan diaorang and tu sama macam kita menyakiti makhluk Allah. Kadang2 kata2 lebih berbisa dari perbuatan. I bukan bercakap dekat sini untuk diri I seorang je tapi untuk kawan-kawan I and orang dekat luar sana yang kene tindas and kene panggil bodoh di sebabkan tidak fasih berbahasa english. I berkawan ramai dengan orang luar and you guys tahu tak, diaorang bukan macam orang sini yang suka memperolokkan orang lain akibat benda kecil macam tu tapi diaorang memperbetulkan and tak pernah gelakkan orang.

Diaorang tak kisah berkongsi ilmu dengan orang macam kita, Malaysian yang berlagak macam orang luar (:

Kita kutuk orang sbb diaorang failed sampai diaorang malu and hilang confidence dalam diri disebabkan tu.

Cubalah jadi orang yang berfikir panjang, tak semestinya apa yang you guys ada sekarang akan kekal untuk selamanya.

Cube jadi terbuka macam orang luar, I tak suruh you guys ikut trend diaorang tapi cara diaorang memberi pandangan pada orang lain lagi lagi orang macam kita. Diaorang jauh lebih bijak daripada kitaorang okay? Soalan UPSR sini dah sama macam ujian bulanan dekat sana, PMR soalan untuk 12 tahun and SPM soalan untuk 15 tahun. You guys nampak tak betapa susahnya dioarang belajar daripada kita dekat sini and you guys try nak kutuk orang lain sedangkan banyak lagi yang kita tak tahu and belum tentu apa yang kita katakan tu betul, cuba kalau diaorang yang kutuk you guys? Agak-agak best tak?

You guys tak malu ke kutuk orang sedangkan masa you guys baru nak belajar pun terkial-kial buka kamus or google untuk faham? And bila you guys dah pandai then terus lupa diri yang you guys pun actually macam tu masa baru belajar.

Tak salahkan kalau betulkan apa yang diaorang cakap daripada gelakkan diaorang?

And untuk Malaysian yang dah berjaya menapak kaki dekat tempat orang lain tu, Congrats but tak semestinya you guys duduk sana you guys dah boleh judge orang sesuka hati. Ingat asal usul you guys dari mana and bila you cakap

"I sebenarnya tak berapa faham apa you cakap so can you speak in English please?"


OhEmGee, You tak bangga ke duduk dekat Malaysia and jadi orang Malaysia?

I sendiri dengan bangganya mengaku I SUKA MALAYSIA and I SUKA BAHASA MELAYU walaupun sometimes I pun boleh tersilap cakap dalam Melayu.

So kalau kauorang nak bangga disebabkan kauorang dah belajar sana, tak ada guna.

Bagitahu I kalau you guys dapat kawan dari Kazakh macam kawan I seorang ni. lahir dekat German and berkawan dengan orang sana walaupun dia Kazakh but dia tak expert pun dalam English and dia selalu merendah diri, you rasa malu tak? Tak macam orang sini yang baru tahu 1/2 dari keseluruhan perkataan tapi dah berlagak macam diaorang kononnya setaraf dengan orang luar. Oh please, letakkan diri di bawah and pandang sekeliling you guys. Ada yang lebih bijak dan pintar tapi tidak menunjuk.

So untuk kawan kawan yang menghadapi benda yang sama, Get up buddies. Atleast you guys mencuba and belajar untuk bercakap macam diaorang yang pandai berbahasa English. Kita sama-sama belajar and percayalah eventho I bukan Malaysian tapi tak semestinya I ni 101% expert in English. Orang yang gelakkan you tu sebenarnya losers and sangka yang diaorang dah cukup sempurna untuk menilai kauorang. Diaorang belum tahu satu hari nanti if you guys dapat beat diaorang and trust me, bila hari tu tiba diaorang akan tunduk malu bila nampak you guys dengan kedudukan and di hormati. Tak semestinya you guys ni tak fasih orang boleh jatuhkan you guys, NO NO NO, SO BIG NO okay?

You can beat em and who knws one day you guys jauh lebih baik daripada diaorang?

Jangan rasa malu bila diaorang kutuk cause you dah buktikan yang you sebenarnya belajar (Y)

So kepada pengutuk pengutuk dekat luar tu, stop mocking and judging.

You guys tak tahu pun apa akan jadi pada future you, maybe today you tengok diri you depan cermin and dah cukup bagus tapi Allah tu boleh tarik apa je yang dia nak dalam sekelip mata.

Hargailah apa yang kauorang ada and gunakan dengan sebaiknya bukan memalukan orang and aibkan orang lain.

Bersyukur and merendah diri tu lebih baik.

Okay, Im done.

Thanks for reading friends <33

Take care xxx

Loves, Ara

Oct 20, 2010

Hello Life

I ada baca satu novel ni, about one girl ni jatuh cinta pada seorang lelaki but lelaki tu tak kenal dia and sama sekali tak sedar kewujudan dia dalam dunia ni. Dia try nak dekat and cari tahu siapa lelaki yang dah curi hati dia setelah sekian lama dia cuba untuk melarikan diri dari perasaan dia sendiri tapi dia takut di anggap bodoh untuk cuba mendekati lelaki yang sememangnya tak akan pandang dia. Well dalam cerita tu, lelaki ni di gilai ramai and dia seorang yng berstatus tinggi sementara perempuan ni bermasalah lagi2 dengan keluarga dia. Kedua2 orang tuanya memang datang dari golongan bangsawan tapi biasa lah, masalah cerai and mcm2 buat perempuan ni lari dari rumah and hidup sendiri. Sampai lah dia jatuh cinta dgn lelaki ni and diaorg pernah membenci antara satu sama lain yang bezanya perempuan tu ingat lelaki and tapi lelaki ni tak ingat dia atau pergaduhan yang berlaku secara tiba2 tu. Haha mmg funny tapi apa yang I tahu, girl ni banyak menderita, I actually tak sabar nak habiskan cerita ni. Nanti I update lagi okay?

Haha, Penat!
Better pergi belajar, Agak tertekan lah kan? Belajar bagai nak mati tapi ending?
Still kene hantar jauh and belajar seorang, Tak boleh ke kalau just belajar dalam Malaysia and habiskan zaman persekolahan macam biasa?
Tak nak lah habis belajar cepat then kerja, tak best :/
Tertekan tahu? Lagi2 dengan manusia keliling I ni =.=
Gaduh dengan ayahanda and mama busy dgn case lawyer and polis. Tah kes apa lagi tapi tu la kenyataannya. rumah I free setiap hari and I hampir mati kebosanan kalau Andrew tak ada =.=
Duit? BHAHAHAA, Duit I di sekat oleh ayah I kot weh! Mcm mana lah nak hidup dalam rumah kebosanan? Lappy saya akan sampai esok hari :D Happy yeay!
CC/atm card I pun dah tak boleh buat lagi since my dad tak kasi and I guna duit berlebihan. Haha weh bukan shopping lah :D
Habiskan almost 4k sebulan keatas kawan2 dan ex bf sahaja :D
Banyak sangat benda nak share.
Tapi tak ada mood lah bak menaip sekarang ni, nanti I copy dari notes fhone eh :D

Oct 2, 2010

Burden >.<'

Nak share boleh?
2Days ago my parents balik then ketuk bilik I,
So yeah diaorg masuk lah bila I buka pintu.
Memang bawa berita mengejutkan, menakutkan dan juga mengembirakan.
My dad suruh I pilih samada I nak masuk college next year atau pun sambung EDI and Pass Olevel I untuk pergi Japan.
My dad nak I handle my own business dulu, Memang menakutkan bila I dengar -.-
Damn. Pa, Im not interested with business at this age lah, Im still young kot.
Well, guys its 23k for 16YO yang nak masuk college. What If I tak pass? And retake balik? Damn bazir duit parents je okay.
But My dad said he dont mind. Dia nak I jadi mcm my aunty and of course better than himself or Mama.
But dude, Im 15 for god sake. Im still young for all this business shit =.=
I dont mind if my dad nak I pass my EDI and O level then fly to Japan cause atleast tu tak rush mcm my dad's plan. I takut I tak boleh bawa those course je.

Bila I cakap nak jadi lawyer my dad kata tak boleh -.-
Fine then, Politician like you dad >.<'
Atleast still ada kaitan dgn Law.
Now I knw why my dad advance studies I untuk 5 years.
But kinda hard now, Apa yang I belajar semua tak boleh masuk dlm paper PMR -.-
Diaorg just tanda formula untuk 15/pmr victims. And I pula belajar lebih cepat dari diaorg. Pft.
So if I guna formula form 4->stpm tetap tak diterime sbb diaorg just ikut textbooks.
And now I kene berusaha ingat balik form 3 punya jalan kerja.
I know the answers but tak ada guna kalau jalan kerja I keluar Addmaths :/

Now I dah pening. Pftt.

If I pilih EDI and O level - 6months Japan, 2 years half Aus, 1 year half in Russia/German.

And if I pilih nak masuk college next year, I tak tahu if I boleh pass pun. Mcm rush sangat :/
Dip awal2. Lepas tu tak dpt nak enjoy masa muda. Then terus kerja je.
Wtf, Haih =.=

Sep 14, 2010

Alhamdulillah ^^

Yeah, Semua dah kembali normal and tak ada lagi pening or masalah xD
Chill, Teens life <3<3<3<3<3
Apa eh I buat hari ni -.- ?
I went to Library kejap then Haziq ajak keluar, ambil Naz at Setiawangsa, had our lunch at Curve then pergi rasta jumpa someone, actually not someone but there was like 4-5 seniors(They're older than me so yeah -.-)
Got things to settle up and yeah finally a smile on my face. :DDD
Tehhee, After that pergi Sunway but dah lambat untuk ice skate, Dah pukul 8 pun =='
Then pergi beli new slipper since I pakai slipper toilet rumah I,(Mum's fault, Mana tah dia letak semua my slippers), Well Ive spent almost an hour in the toilet because of this allergi shit and pergi tengok tiket, Aftrlife 3d Residentevil was cool as fuck xD
But damn, I tak suka kalau cerita tu bersambung, The heroin is still kicking my ass off even tll now, Damn hot seriously. The movie was like Left For Dead, Tekken, Starwars, Wanted LOLS, seriously. Semua dlm satu cerita xD
Dangdang, Then Haziq hantar I pergi Hartamas to my uncle's cafe. My mum asked me to meet uncle cause entah what problems and weird why cafe still buka at 12? Rupanya reno cause Kenny's sebelah tu dh kene beli dgn my uncle, 2 unit so means we got 5 cafes ad, One at Shah Alam next to my cousin's hotel xD , and another 4 at Sri Hartamas(Outdoor and Indoor). Dang, I love Hartamas especially my fav place at Solaris :D , So guys do come to our shops alright :)
We got cafes, corners, Hotel, spa too :) (Blessing hand/Beauty and Vie Spa/Wok Hei)

Cool, Im leave. Im really tired lol, Just got back form karaoke :D
Btw thanks for the flowers and choc, Boy <3<3<3
Byee guys, Night!

Sep 13, 2010

Only One ^^

Allahhuakhbar :)

Perfect Life ^^

-Im loving myself :)

-Lachowski For Life *Perfect

-Awesome Friends

-Perfect Family

-So tell me, Im a lifeless? Think again cause I am better than you. Way better and seriously I dont give a fuck to a dead man like you. I am WHO I am, Not WHAT I am :)